lovehateme

Two weeks til France. I need to leave the country, just for awhile, just to get away. Time to practise my french. Should i apply to spend a year studying in America? Or Australia?

I like knowing your in the same time zone. Not that it makes any difference though.

Spent yesterday with colin.  and realised that its the first time in ages that i've spent all day with someone, other than andy or carly. It was a good day.

The weeks pass so quickly, days dont have much meaning now since i work different days each week and my days off are all the same.

People read my last journal. Someone even left a comment/note thing. I was shocked.

just now i am:

planning trips to the pub with Adam.

avoiding the people in my house.

thinking about you. get out my head.

this is NOT my life...

I am so bored today. One month til i go back to Uni, or til im supposed to go back. I don't know if i will. I get bored of things too easily. Have considered quitting and re-thinking the whole thing. Who knows. I think I'll just run away. Where should i go?

Right now i am...

writing stories with steve.

missing talking to Robert now he's back at Aberdeen.

pretending i don't notice that he's online.

dreading going to work.

looking at old pictures.

lets go camping.

Spent most of the weekend driving around Scotland. It was busy, can't understand why tourists would come here. I would give all the money I have to get out of here. All the money I have wouldn't get me far though. Stayed with friends in an old farm house up in Fort William, the tap water was yellow and there were no carpets but it was fun. There were cows in the garden.

I'm quite tired tonight but don't want to go to bed yet. The sooner i go to bed the sooner I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll have nothing to do all day. I think I've lost my job too, since the place is closing down.

 I hate these summers when everyone is working, its almost as bad as term time when everyone moves away back to uni and i'm left here by myself. Sometimes i miss how simple things were in High School. Don't leave me again.

I never know what people think of me. Maybe it's for the best ...